weeping heart

I heard a scream
But the scream was from nowhere
I heard something crash
But I can’t find it anywhere

I saw rivers of tears
But I haven’t seen the eyes
I saw the face of rejection
But I just can’t seem to recognize

I kept looking
Still I can not find
I kept on waiting
But there was no sign

Frustration embraced me
Defeat became my company
My weakness took over me
And happiness became my enemy

I stopped searching
That’s when I saw
When I came to my senses
All I did was drop my jaw

Everything that had happened
Could not be seen anywhere
It was too late before I knew
That it’s inside of me though I’m unaware

Bitterness had taken over me
I was blinded by hatred
I became numb because of anger
And revenge was what I wanted

I became deaf
And wasn’t able to figure out
That all I have been hearing
Was me from inside-out

What I need is time
Time to reconstruct
What I need is love
Love that is real; not an act

I want to break free
From the prison I have made
I want to live life
The way I should have lived

No more tears
No more breaks
No more fears
And no more aches

I will go and find love
In places I have never been
I’ll take chances and risks
To find the happiness yet unseen…

xoxo