as i watch the night fall
i realized how empty im feeling
i have never felt this before
but i guess i have to get used to it

the emptiness radiates from within
i just cant figure out where
is it from my mind?
or from my heart?

this empty feeling frightens me
that it might turn out to be the worst feeling i could have
i am frightened to turn numb, numb from everything
i was scared to get hurt, now im the one hurting myself

i have to find myself
be sure about what i really want
search for my soul deep within me
and then maybe i could answer all my questions

i can't go on through life like this
living inside my bubble created by me
a bubble to make me feel safe
isolate me from everyone

everyday i try to fake a smile
so that no one would know what im really feeling
but how long will this make believe last?
would it be enough to cover my truth?

im lost, weak, intimidated and empty
to sum it all up, im the other word for lonely
never had i imagined my life to be like this
i wish one day, i would wake up feeling whole again..


xoxo
anj